Category Archives: Thoughts

Happy Valentine’s Day!

To my two favorite guys in the whole world – happy Valentine’s Day!

I love you both more than you will ever know!  I am the luckiest gal in the whole world, having both of you in my life.

XOXO

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OMG! Surprise!

I have the sweetest mommy friends here in H-town.  On Saturday morning, they surprised me with a shower for Brady Gaga!  I must have cried no less than 5 times that morning – as it was just too sweet!  It really has been surprising how close we all have become, and I have known most of them for less than a year!  I think I have known Cowgirl and V3 for about a year.  I am so thankful for them, as they help me navigate the wobbly landscape of motherhood. and thankful that we not only have kids in common, but lots of other things, so we really are friends.  Not just friends because of our kids, but rather friends who got introduces because of our kids.

It’s funny, our parenting styles go from one extreme to another, but there is always things I learn from everyone, even the moms that have completely different mothering styles than me.  I like that we are all so different.  and it is great for the kiddies – as Baby J loves to see his friends.

It was so nice on Saturday – the babies were not there, so we actually got to visit and finish sentences!  And they thought of everything  – they all wrote down thoughts and wishes in a midnight changing basket – so when I change Brady Gaga in the middle of the night, I will have a little light reading to keep me company!  and they got Boom to write 5 (or 6) things he loves about me as a mom – which were all so sweet and funny!  That would have totally been enough, but they also got me a very generous GC to a fav place of mine to get smocked ensembles!  Can’t wait to get Brady Gaga and Baby J in matching (or Jack and Jill) outfits!

I really am so, so thankful for each and everyone of them – as well as for my amazing sister and mother!  So glad they could both be there as well.

I do feel a little weird – as I usually would have gotten thank you notes out the door on Monday, but I am hosting play group on Friday and have a little something for everyone (including thank you notes) that I can just give out then.  But I am really worried that they will all think I am so ungrateful and impolite!  I discussed with Boom, wondering if I should let them know that I know my thank you cards are going to be a smidge late, but he was all, Don’t worry about it.  Most people wouldn’t have thank you notes out by Friday anyway.

Here is one of the “thoughts” Boom submitted to the gals:

I love that you already cry when you think about JJ and Brady Gaga going away to college.

It’s true – I am a freak.  Maybe they can go to Rice!

Independent

JJ started having Mum-Mums earlier this week and has really taken to them.  I am not sure if it is the taste (they basically taste like nothing) or the fact that I give him pieces that are big enough for him to “feed” himself.

Sometimes he gets more hand than food, but I am really proud that he can even get close!  and glad that he is enjoying the harder texture more.

A couple times, when I tried to help him get the Mum-Mum in his mouth, he actually pushed my hand away!  I was so startled the first time, I figured it was just a fluke.  Then I tried to help him again, and again he pushed my hand away.  The second time I was startled because he usually never gives me any resistance regardless of what we are doing, really, so it is a new thing for me to have to get used to.  But it is good – he is becoming an independent little person!  and if he doesn’t want my help, he’ll just push my hand away!

Happy Birthday to ME!

It’s funny, as you get older, birthdays are things you want to try to forget, instead of celebrate. So different from when you are a kid.

I can’t believe it’s been 4 years since I raced 150 miles across the Atacama Desert – that was the 2nd coolest thing I have ever done (the first is being JJ’s mumsie). I am glad that I pushed myself and did that race – I think everyone should do something like that at least once in their lives.

As much as I love my life right now, a small part of me misses me as a badass. Maybe I’ll do ultramarathons again, maybe not. Who knows what the future may bring… As my birthday gift to myself, I am going to remember my time in Chile (you can read an earlier post about it here – looks like I need to scan in my blog posts from the race and put them up sometime…).

Life just seems to work out quite well – when I did the Atacama, it was the culmination of all my selfish years – years of doing whatever Boom and I wanted, whenever we wanted.  And once we were good and ready, Baby J came along and now it is time for our selfless years – can’t be selfish now, and don’t want to be… I figure when I wake up at 445am to go running or go to bootcamp, that is my hour of selfishness for the day.  and that is good enough for now.

He’s a Keeper

Maybe a month ago, I realized I will be needing to replace my laptop at some juncture this year.  I went to the Apple store Genius Bar to see about syncing my Blackberry calendar with iCal (I ended up going with Google Calendar, so it syncs wirelessly!  It is awesome.) and the little 18-year-old geek who helped me was basically laughing at my laptop, since it is so old, to him.  But it is only 5-6 years old, which doesn’t seem all that old to me…  oh well.

Evidently I can’t even upgrade my operating system to the latest that Apple offers because my computer is so old and doesn’t have an Intel chip in it.  The OS that I can upgrade to is no longer sold at Apple.

Anyway, this weekend Boom and I were on the Apple site and talking about which laptop I would need to replace my old one.  Since Macs are not cheap, I mentioned that maybe I could get the MacBook (the most affordable laptop Apple makes) as the replacement.  Boom thought for a minute, and then he was all, No, you need the MacBook Pro.  Which made me laugh, since I am stay-at-home mom (albeit a kick-a$$ one).  I bet most hubbys would not argue that their stay-at-home wives “need” such a nice laptop.

Not only that, he really recognizes and appreciates that dealing with Baby J is a full time job.  Most nights he cooks, and I feel bad about that.  I feel bad that I can’t have dinner ready and the house spotless when he comes home.  But he is all, Your job isn’t to cook, it is to raise our son.  Hopefully, I’ll be able to do a good job with Bubby and some girl – a long time from now – will be so lucky to have him as her hubs!

I mean, how did I get so lucky to have found my soul mate at age 22?!  and somehow I didn’t run him off with all the crazies!  Sometimes I really am amazed…

Anyway, here are my two awesome guys:

Thanks, Boom, for being such a great husband and dad!

Life

Sometimes it is easy to take my life for granted. Then, like a kick to the face, I am confronted with something (or someone) that makes me want to cry and not take anything for granted.

Today we had music class. It is really cute – a lot of singing and moving around. We had already started when a child and a white haired lady came in – “Trey” looked to be about 1 year old. I saw that something was not right with his face, but not until they sat down did I really see – he had no eyes. I don’t know what would cause such a thing, but there was no sockets, and of course, no eyeballs. “Sue”, his caretaker (I surmise), was very loving and good with him. He loved the music and liked to sway when we were singing.

It made me want to cry – and I nearly did, a couple of times. Just because life is unfair. This little guy didn’t do anything to deserve the hardship that was bestowed on him. And life probably hadn’t been easy so far, and I am assuming it wasn’t going to start being easy now. I also wondered about his parents. Did they hire Sue so they could both work full time? or did Sue have special skills in dealing with special needs kids? How were they dealing with the hand life had dealt them? or had they caused it somehow?

It made me want to hug and squeeze Bubby tight, and really never let go. It made me realize that while I was concerned with what kindergarten he would be going to (in a few years), other people had far more serious things to be worried about. I also hope that Trey’s parents are better than me. That they were not too disappointed when they realized their child was not going to be able to fulfill all of their hopes and dreams they have for him. But mainly it makes my heart ache.

I am realizing that becoming a parent has really changed my outlook. I would do anything for Bubby not to have any serious illness, that I would be willing to take on any hardship if it could help keep him safe.  and when we got home for music class, I just snug snugged with my little guy, for as long as he would let me.

Here’s the cutie:

I am not going to forget to be thankful everyday, for everything that I have.

Four Months

Dear Baby J (aka Mr. Crabbypants) –

On Friday, you turned 4 months old.  You are much more aware of your surroundings and have more control over your hands now.

This past week has been very challenging (and still continues to be).  You have been all out of sorts – not napping well and not eating very well either (I guess you are consuming enough food, but to get it in you has been a huge pain – you wax on and wax off with your arms so the bottle has no chance of staying in your mouth).  I think you might be teething or at least having some teething pains, as you have many symptoms that point to that (drooling, chewing on hands, fussiness, not wanting to suck, etc).  I hope you snap out of it soon, and I get my easy going baby back.

You definitely are driving your dad and me to drink.  And driving me to eat sugar (gasp).  I blame my not losing my baby weight on you – some mornings I am just too tired from waking up in the middle of the night to go running.  Taking you top  the gym worked once, but the 2nd time they had to come find me b/c you were crying.  I will try again at some point.

I do think child rearing is the hardest job ever.  Moms don’t get enough credit.  Staying at home full time is awesome, but also really tough.  Hopefully we’ll all make it through unscathed.

This month we had a non-relative babysit for the first time ever.  I wasn’t too nervous leaving you, as Maria is the former nanny (for 18 months!) of one of our friends, so I knew she was fully vetted.  She seemed really great and you didn’t seem to mind being left.  When we were driving from the house, I was all smiley, as I felt like I had a new lease on life!  If grandma is unavail (she was in Europe) and Yarbs is as well (headed to PV), then your dad and I can still head out once in a while.

We’ve taken walks with Ruby – which is a huge step.  If I put you in the Baby Bjorn, then I can take Ruby with us on her leash.

You’ve started to notice the rickrack on your burpees as well as the different patterned fabrics on said burpees.  Since you are getting more coordinated with your hands, I’ve seen you holding an end of your burpee when you are in your carseat, and examining either the trim or the fabric.  It is really adorable.

You are getting BIG!  Still round in the middle, and chubby, but getting longer.  I can’t believe sometimes how tiny you used to be.  You like to push off with your legs, so you can stand (assisted) quite well.  Not really close to being able to sit unassisted, but all in good time.

They say you can start solids this month – I would like to wait until you can sit up in your high chair or Bumbo before we start solids.  Also, we have to get through this rough patch, too.  But I am totally excited to start making baby food – I have the Babycook appliance that will steam and puree foods that I want to use!  and I have multiple baby food cookbooks.

You will be starting “school” in the fall – you’ll be 9 months.  I am excited for you and me!  You’ll get more socialized and make friends, and I will have 2 mornings off 🙂  and also get to meet more mommy friends.

I know you are having a tough time right now.  I just wish I could make it better.  Hopefully we’ll all get adjusted soon, and back on schedule.  You still are so adorable and are so loved by Boom and me.

I know I complain, but really, even at your most fussy, you are still much easier to deal with than a lot of babys out there.  and your smiles make all the hard work worth it.

Love,

Mummy